Having One of Those Days

I feel like I'm sitting by a mailbox waiting on a letter from a friend letting me know that he or she cares and that I matter in the world.

And that mail never comes.

Where do I go from here?

I don't want to live to be 100 years. The world has become such a bad place. (Like were there ANY good times in the world?)

Everyone has forgotten about me. I have no friends nor confidantes.

I am cut off mid-sentence and told not to worry about anything. Easy for you to say.

People with mental illnesses are one of the most discriminated of all. It hurts. It really does.

Food and sleep are my favorite two things now. I am gaining weight and I cannot control that though I have cut out calories.

Yellow Lab Love

I've had a hard day emotionally. Sometimes I think I'm going to run out of tears I've been such a crybaby all of my life.

Then my cats and a special dog come along to make me feel so much better.

Meet Woody!

(And his "dad" is a terrific man too!)

Muchos Gracias, Pirata Nino Negro

For the memory recall of my grandpa's nickname for me. M A D A M Q U E E N. (If you're offended, get over it. A lovely black actress played the part in "Amos and Andy", and I liked her character as well.)

I'm going to get philosophical here--- just enjoy the photo of the bridge if you don't like what I've got to say below.

Bridges....some people should think more about building them rather than burning whatever bridges they may have already, however tenuous.

Rabid angry hatred, sometimes or not irrational, destroys that angry individual, not whomever he hates.

Something we should ALL think about.

I recently realized that I still have hatred for my ex-husband and a couple of others--- I am not proud of it actually just the opposite. Because what good does it do for ME? Nothing. So I am praying for the grace to not only forgive them but to be able to control my rage and to love the (again) as fellow children of God the Most High.

I do not have to be friends with them or even exchange 2 sentences...but I've got to let these vices I constantly struggle with... GO! And that doesn't mean I have to be a doormat which is one of the reasons I have not given any thought to forgiveness until recently.

After all, we all should want our robes to be as white as snow when we finally get to meet Him, right? And I don't want Him to tell me that I could have done a lot of great things...but for my fear and anger which I let stand in the way.

Our bodies need to be nurtured and so do our souls. Staying angry is like a junk food diet-- in the end, it will slowly starve you of any virtue, goodness, that your soul needs to keep going as well as bear forth ill effects as a bad diet to the mortal body would.

Say a prayer at 9pm Easter, 8 Central, 7 Mountain, and 6 Pacific---- for just ONE minute. Pray to God to heal our country, heal the world, heal our divisions, and bring us true Peace. Just one minute...



(Shoot, I can get pretty deep, can't I? LOL)

Back To the Spartanburg Garden!

Nothing tells me more to slow down than to look at nature with God's own handmade relaxation aids.

I just love my lilies this time of year. Expect I'll be taking more of them throughout the summer. One of the most maintenance free, rewarding plants one could ever invest in. I'm thinking of planting loads of them in our big front and back yards.

(Though I HATE summer, though winter is close behind with its cold, which aggravates my Fibromyalgia, and everything is so brown and gray.)

Firing on only 1 cylinder so far this morning. Out of four cylinders. So tired!

Srsly!

Anyone else think Lucy's spankings on "I Love Lucy" were well deserved and hilarious?

To all Lucy haters:

I'll put up my Lucy against your Reality TV programming (Barf!) ANYTIME!

Forget the Stats

Buy some of my photos if ya feel so inclined.

http://flalilly64.smugmug.com/


I'm currently taking an online photography course and the time to dedicate to studying is becoming less and less it seems--- time for my boys to man up and start taking up some of the chores around the house!

PS: You don't REALLY have to buy anything but if you REALLY like the photos please tell me so. Or keep your mouth shut. LOL

Just to Drive Feministas Crazy

I think Lucy getting spanked was hilarious. Goodness she asked for, and needed it!

Of course, I wouldn't have minded, as a single woman or married to Desi Arnaz, getting spanked by him either!